Well, I wasn't really going to address any of the earlier comment, but I'll hit them up 2-fer.
1. The one-shots I posted for Trope Bingo took an hour a piece. Frankly, I don't spend a lot of time on fanfic, and sometimes I feel guilty about that. Poetry and one-shots don't TAKE a lot of time. Novels and original fiction do/does. Just the way I'm wired. Sorry.
2. I specifically went on total break so I didn't have to worry about the process. It wasn't about the difference of our speed. It was that I needed to finish something before I sent it to you and you kept changing it while I was working on it which made it pretty hard to work on. So while we worked out a method to deal with that, I finally was too stressed to work on it. I think it's fair to say that I didn't say I wouldn't write anything, just that we probably needed to step back on our collaboration and make sure we were still on the same page. We weren't. I haven't gotten enough headspace quite yet to hold a whole novel, so I haven't gone back and reread our letters/meta/work to figure out where we left off. Belibeve it or not, we're still wrapping up the move and my taxes were extended but they're not done. Also, I waited until the last minute pretty much to write my three fiction one-shots, create one photoset, and a fanmix. The photoset really didn't take an hour.
3. I knew the comment was you. I didn't notice it was anonymous.
4. I appreciate your patience. I understand your resentment. I've had a friend's book since just before I read the last book of yours I got to and haven't had the headspace to read a whole novel for a while now.
I already know the stuff in canon, so fandom stuff doesn't require headspace, or at least not nearly the same amount. I'm struggling at work still trying to comprehend instructions I read and tests I'm running, so you're sadly not the only person neglected right now, but you're the only one I specifically cleared it with first.
5. No matter what, you and your friendship still matter to me. I'm not expecting you to drag your hopes back out and have them dashed. I'm just telling you that sometime in the next month or two (provided this proofreading project that came in - paid, so yes, I'm taking it - doesn't drag out due to my concentration issues) you might get a finished draft of something. You may ignore it if you so please. You may alter the mess out of it if you so please. I don't really care.
I have learned that my definitions of success aren't other people's. I can't afford to take theirs on, so I don't. I also know we left off on the shelf and on good footing with a re-evaluate to be done after I was done moving, which sadly I'm not due to helping the general household in addition to dealing with my own stuff. Plus poor sleep.
I have never understood why I could fanfic pretty well when I'm at my lowest ebb and once I feel better, fanfic falls away pretty fast. I can only tell you that if I'm heavily involved in fandom, it's actually not a good sign for my general well-being, and I don't care. It's how I get through the low times, just like regular writing used to work for you.
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1. The one-shots I posted for Trope Bingo took an hour a piece. Frankly, I don't spend a lot of time on fanfic, and sometimes I feel guilty about that. Poetry and one-shots don't TAKE a lot of time. Novels and original fiction do/does. Just the way I'm wired. Sorry.
2. I specifically went on total break so I didn't have to worry about the process. It wasn't about the difference of our speed. It was that I needed to finish something before I sent it to you and you kept changing it while I was working on it which made it pretty hard to work on. So while we worked out a method to deal with that, I finally was too stressed to work on it. I think it's fair to say that I didn't say I wouldn't write anything, just that we probably needed to step back on our collaboration and make sure we were still on the same page. We weren't. I haven't gotten enough headspace quite yet to hold a whole novel, so I haven't gone back and reread our letters/meta/work to figure out where we left off. Belibeve it or not, we're still wrapping up the move and my taxes were extended but they're not done. Also, I waited until the last minute pretty much to write my three fiction one-shots, create one photoset, and a fanmix. The photoset really didn't take an hour.
3. I knew the comment was you. I didn't notice it was anonymous.
4. I appreciate your patience. I understand your resentment. I've had a friend's book since just before I read the last book of yours I got to and haven't had the headspace to read a whole novel for a while now.
I already know the stuff in canon, so fandom stuff doesn't require headspace, or at least not nearly the same amount. I'm struggling at work still trying to comprehend instructions I read and tests I'm running, so you're sadly not the only person neglected right now, but you're the only one I specifically cleared it with first.
5. No matter what, you and your friendship still matter to me. I'm not expecting you to drag your hopes back out and have them dashed. I'm just telling you that sometime in the next month or two (provided this proofreading project that came in - paid, so yes, I'm taking it - doesn't drag out due to my concentration issues) you might get a finished draft of something. You may ignore it if you so please. You may alter the mess out of it if you so please. I don't really care.
I have learned that my definitions of success aren't other people's. I can't afford to take theirs on, so I don't. I also know we left off on the shelf and on good footing with a re-evaluate to be done after I was done moving, which sadly I'm not due to helping the general household in addition to dealing with my own stuff. Plus poor sleep.
I have never understood why I could fanfic pretty well when I'm at my lowest ebb and once I feel better, fanfic falls away pretty fast. I can only tell you that if I'm heavily involved in fandom, it's actually not a good sign for my general well-being, and I don't care. It's how I get through the low times, just like regular writing used to work for you.