At the risk of being more self-doubting, i had been worried about it... I didn't want it to seem like I was ungrateful for what you'd done. I really am glad you were willing to make the tables for me. I just wasn't able to organize my thoughts on them and kept being tripped up by the ones that I couldn't do. if I fixed it myself, then I wasn't causing more problems/creating more work.
I would like to say it's just the stress I've been under for the past few months making me this bad, but I had issues before. I did try and rebuild at least my writing support network... It didn't go well, as you know. That... That I really do feel makes it worse. I was trying to find a counterbalance to losing one of my oldest supports and felt like I got kicked down farther.
I don't want to ask too much of you or annoy you, but I don't have many people left to ask and I am afraid I will do something like I did that pushed the others away.
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Date: 2015-07-26 02:50 pm (UTC)I would like to say it's just the stress I've been under for the past few months making me this bad, but I had issues before. I did try and rebuild at least my writing support network... It didn't go well, as you know. That... That I really do feel makes it worse. I was trying to find a counterbalance to losing one of my oldest supports and felt like I got kicked down farther.
I don't want to ask too much of you or annoy you, but I don't have many people left to ask and I am afraid I will do something like I did that pushed the others away.