You don't have to do anything for it. I got the impression it was something else that bothered her about her baseline because of the way she reacted in Justice, but if it's just that I suppose she wouldn't have the reaction I thought she would and wouldn't conceal stuff from Kilter, but he did remark on how she'd changed her appearance to look more like their daughter, so it seemed to me like she was concealing it from both of them.
So I got the wrong idea about it, but it seemed like if she wasn't willing to share it, it wasn't the equal footing that love should have.
I did say it was a bad idea for it to be about Shift, though, and I think it still is because I never have your characters right.
'Tisn't a have to situation. En brief, you notice a lot of the little things I dangle, but a lot of them are there for later explanation and don't have the full interpretation attached.
I'll unpack a little.
Shift dislikes being forced to baseline physical form because seriously, that hampers her flexibility in combat and comfort and can cause serious issues if she had weapons stored in her flesh because they suddenly become weapons in her flesh. Yeah, bad idea and way to get injured.
Shift has been everybody from the behavioral side with Kilter. He is seriously attracted to her baseline fierceness and hates himself for that fact. They both know this.
Shift's daughter LOVES Shift's physical ability and loves for Shift to "look like her," so Shift often humors her.
Shift also protects her daughter by being a wholly different person in the way she interacts with her daughter.
She does friendships and I actually want to do this ficlet. Kilter and her love/hate each other in a complicated way, but they are definitely equals. The ONLY reason Shift got promoted over him was because he could never command her, but he could sit on her as her second.
That first part is the problem. I turn the things I notice into theories/stories/explanations of what they are, but I always get them wrong. Then I find myself frustrated because what I thought I knew of the character is wrong, and I think many times the idea of the character is what I like more than the reality. It's why I moved away from fanfiction: all I seemed to like anymore was my idea of what was, not what was truly there, and why bother if I don't like what's there?
I'm so tired of getting it all wrong.
If you want to do the fic, then you can. I regret bringing it up, though, because clearly the reasoning behind me thinking I wanted to see it was wrong.
I don't know about that. The basic thinking of being totally herself with a FRIEND is a big deal was correct. Totally herself without any guards up doesn't happen often because for the most part, her natural self works best on enemies.
She's a character who could stand to learn more about herself too.
And that is true. I leave fanficcer type icebergs. I don't do it on purpose to frustrate people; it's just something I love. I actually like hearing various interpretations. I just don't canonize them.
And it might be an interesting concept. It wouldn't be anything like what I'd thought it would be, since my idea of where she was coming from was all wrong, so it's not really something I should have asked for because it's not going to be what I thought I wanted.
I kind of think she needs to learn more about who she is when she's not being what Thorn made her into. It would be a start toward putting it behind her, maybe. Then again, I really don't know Shift at all, so... *shrugs*
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Date: 2014-06-26 01:29 am (UTC)So I got the wrong idea about it, but it seemed like if she wasn't willing to share it, it wasn't the equal footing that love should have.
I did say it was a bad idea for it to be about Shift, though, and I think it still is because I never have your characters right.
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Date: 2014-06-26 03:22 am (UTC)I'll unpack a little.
Shift dislikes being forced to baseline physical form because seriously, that hampers her flexibility in combat and comfort and can cause serious issues if she had weapons stored in her flesh because they suddenly become weapons in her flesh. Yeah, bad idea and way to get injured.
Shift has been everybody from the behavioral side with Kilter. He is seriously attracted to her baseline fierceness and hates himself for that fact. They both know this.
Shift's daughter LOVES Shift's physical ability and loves for Shift to "look like her," so Shift often humors her.
Shift also protects her daughter by being a wholly different person in the way she interacts with her daughter.
She does friendships and I actually want to do this ficlet. Kilter and her love/hate each other in a complicated way, but they are definitely equals. The ONLY reason Shift got promoted over him was because he could never command her, but he could sit on her as her second.
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Date: 2014-06-26 04:06 am (UTC)I'm so tired of getting it all wrong.
If you want to do the fic, then you can. I regret bringing it up, though, because clearly the reasoning behind me thinking I wanted to see it was wrong.
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Date: 2014-06-26 04:24 am (UTC)She's a character who could stand to learn more about herself too.
And that is true. I leave fanficcer type icebergs. I don't do it on purpose to frustrate people; it's just something I love. I actually like hearing various interpretations. I just don't canonize them.
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Date: 2014-06-26 04:52 am (UTC)I kind of think she needs to learn more about who she is when she's not being what Thorn made her into. It would be a start toward putting it behind her, maybe. Then again, I really don't know Shift at all, so... *shrugs*