Trusting the Process

[scribblemyname]

This entry is part 69 of 69 in the series Daily Scribble Reports

February 25, 2014

So collaboration and Invisible fics. Let's get cracking.

I think we can best sum up the 25th as an exercise in type, delete, repeat.

February 26, 2014

I added the snippet of my collaborator's to the song "Dust to Dust" by The Civil Wars and finally got somewhere, 819 words, with writing this collaboration. Yay.

Been researching for my Ficathon pieces and located a beta for my not-sure-if-I-like-it treat I did, which I edited and added 60 words to yesterday on the 25th.

February 27, 2014

Out sick. Wrote 213 words in "Remembrance" when I realized what it is I was missing in this Vardin story due to a post by P. C. Wrede.

Ordered the copies of Dowse and Bleed for my betas/readers, though I did nothing else toward launching the book. I sent off a couple long collaboration emails, slept a lot, dreaded making dinner for the family (my night), and watched The Civil Wars videos. Note: "The One That Got Away" is my new Rachelle/Justus theme song. She's the most asexual character I've ever written. She really, really IS a take it or leave it person.

Speak of the girl, she just handed me 198 words of Lovemark the Seasons and an approach to the story that I can live with. I'm going to start writing like a fangirl when it serves me. Sometimes, I forget I have a literary bent and what that means. As I've been digging into metafic and invisible fandoms and all the sort of possibilities of fiction, including a deep look at experimental and Nabakov's poem and reference novel, I realized that I am not limited by a pre-existing format or structure, unless I choose to be. As long as the final story works, go for it. I'm going to play with Lovemark. I knew when I started it that the work was experimental, so I'm going to finally really let go of my safety net and let it be experimental.

Speaking of which, I realized I haven't been trusting the process of collaboration either. I've been something of a control freak. Go figure. Not my usual thing except as it relates to something that's mine, but this is mine, just it's also someone else's. I needed to take a long look at my own strengths as a writer and my own weaknesses and cede controlling interest on the parts where I am weak. I hate writing those parts anyway, so it was past time to focus again on the parts I love and let my collaborator really shine where she's strong.

Spent five minutes setting up a Kingdoms and Thorn tumblr. Will fill in some stuff soon, but I realized it'll be a good dumping ground for stuff that's not just series bible stuff and also a great way to handle questions.

Word Counts:

• Fiction: 1280 words
• Poetry: 0 lines | 0 words
• Blog: 580 words

February Totals

• Fiction: 12,104 words
• Poetry: 97 lines | 590 words
• Blog: 4860 words

Pieces Started Not Finished

• Fiction: Hear the Stars, novella.
• Nonfiction/Blog: Indie Author Guide to Genre, book/blog series.
• Fanfic: Invisible Ficathon Treat.
• Poem: Untitled - You gave me a name...
• Poem: Untitled - The way riverbeds miss the water...
• Fanfic: Invisible Ficathon Assignment.

Completed Pieces

• Fanfic: “Wholeness of Self,” 783 words.
• Poem: "Tell Me," 8 lines | 37 words.
• Poem: "Mother," 8 lines | 22 words.
• Fanfic: Invisible Ficathon Treat, 269 words.
• Poem: "Native," 31 lines | 232 words.
• Poem: "Moderation," 6 lines | 20 words.
• Poem: "I Should Think," 20 lines| 140 words.
• Fanfic: Invisible Ficathon Treat, 2391 words.
• Poem: "Cursor," 7 lines | 54 words.
• Poem: "Unrequited Pain," 8 lines | 29 words.

Originally published at Liana Mir. You can comment here or there.

Comments

[thecatisacritic.livejournal.com]

I wanted to do something with "The One that Got Away," but I never managed it. It just didn't fit with what I write. So I was glad that you could find a use for it, but then I was thinking about the song and it's sad, too. Makes me want to say Poor Justus.

[scribblemyname]

Nah. He knew exactly what he was getting with her and never did see coming any more than she did when she actually did fall in love with him. It's not that she can't take romance; it's that she can also leave it and be as happy. The song covers more the span between when she realizes he fell in love with her to the time when she finally gets her medical issues worked out. She had a ton of good reasons for not wanting him to fall in love with her and for being ticked off when he did.

It worked out in the end though, but since I'm writing something that spans this issue with them, the song is a godsend.

[thecatisacritic.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad the song works then. I always got horrible breakup divorce story concepts from it, so that kind of colors my opinion, I think.

The song does make sense for Rachelle and Justus, though.

[scribblemyname]

And I think you'll like Lovemark. It gets more into the psychology involved between them without the serious messed-upness that being operatives together gave them. I think that actually screwed with their dynamic a lot and made her far more resistant to a relationship with him.

[thecatisacritic.livejournal.com]

I have been curious about it, and the parts I read were interesting.

[scribblemyname]

Well, just for you, here's something I got last night? this morning? Somewhere in there.

You never did get around to taking my class because I never did get back around to teaching it. That summer, I had weekly appointments with Dr. Rybshka. I never told you I gave up on giving up because I didn't want you to spend your grief on me.

You kept holding yourself out to me, and I never was very good at saying no.

[thecatisacritic.livejournal.com]

I like the line about not being good at saying no.

[scribblemyname]

That was my favorite bit too, and it plays out in Dowse and Bleed that that is indeed part of her character.

[thecatisacritic.livejournal.com]

Another possible song for Rachelle/Justus.

(this video is a bit silly, but I do have the song)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0bKY0MnMtY


Lyrics:

All the things I want to say but I can't
All the things I want to do but I won't
Hold me tight
Not too tight
I'm in knots and you tie me in bows
I feel pretty
I know that you care
You're so sweet
You're so so sweet

It's not a hurry that we're in
It's the pollen
It's the spring

I can't make me love you
And you can't make me either
Patience Boy I need it
I can't make me love you

Oh oh oh

Paper pen and a piece of your heart
I can read it but where do I start?
What to do
What do I do?
And I am going but I'm gonna come back
And maybe then this maybe that
Hold me tight
Not too tight

It's not a hurry that were in
There's no problem
That's the thing!

But I can't make me love you
And you can't make me either
Patience Boy I need it
I can't make me love you

oh oh oh
Everyday there's something new to hold onto to,
a little more of you

I Can't make me love you
And you can't make me either
Patience Boy I need it
I can't make me love you
Patience Boy on strange days
I can't make me love you